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and Ben hushed. ‘You have to be careful, Benny. Summer’s coming and I don’t want to spoil your vacation, but you have to be careful. I want you in by suppertime every day. What time do we eat supper?’
‘Six o’clock.’
‘Right with Eversharp! So hear what I’m saying: if I set the table and pour your milk and see that there’s no Ben washing his hands at the sink, I’m going to go right away to the telephone and call the police and report you missing. Do you understand that?’
‘Yes, Mamma.’
‘And you believe I mean exactly what I say?’
‘Yes.’
‘It would probably turn out that I did it for nothing, if I ever had to do it at all. I’m not entirely ignorant about the ways of boys. I know they get wrapped up in their own games and
projects during summer vacation –lining bees back to their hives or playing ball or kick-the –can or whatever. I have a pretty good idea what you and your friends are up to, you see.’
Ben nodded soberly, thinking that if she didn’t know he had no friends, she probably didn’t know anywhere near as much about his boyhood as she thought she did. But he would never have dreamed of saying such a thing to her, not in ten thousand years of dreaming.
She took something from the pocket of her housedress and handed it to him It was a small plastic box. Ben opened it. When he saw what was inside, his mouth dropped open. ‘Wow!’ he said, his admiration totally unaffected. ‘Thanks!’
It was a Timex watch with small silver numbers and an imitation-leather band. She had set it and wound it; he could hear it ticking.
‘Jeez, it’s the coolest!’ He gave her an enthusiastic hug and a loud kiss on the cheek.
She smiled, pleased that he was pleased, and nodded. Then she grew grave again. ‘Put it on, keep it on, wear it, wind it, mind it, don’t lose it.’
‘Okay.’
‘Now that you have a watch you have no reason to be late home. Remember what I said: if you’re not on time, the police will be looking for you on my behalf. At least until they catch the bastard who is killing children around here, don’t you dare be a single minute late, or I’ll be on that telephone.’
‘Yes, Mamma.’
‘One other thing. I don’t want you going around alone. You know enough not to accept candy or rides from strangers — we both agree that you’re no fool — and you’re big for your age, but a grown man, particularly a crazy one, can overpower a child if he really wants to. When you go to the park or the library, go with one of your friends.’
‘I will, Mamma.’
She looked out the window again and uttered a sigh that was full of trouble. ‘Things have come to a pretty pass when a thing like this can go on. There’s something ugly about this town, anyway. I’ve always thought so.’ She looked back at him, brows drawn down. ‘You’re such a wanderer, Ben. You must know almost everyplace in Derry, don’t you? The town part of it, at least.’
Ben didn’t think he knew anywhere near all the places, but he did know a lot of them. And he was so thrilled by the unexpected gift of the Timex that he would have agreed with his mother that night if she had suggested John Wayne should play Adolf Hitler in a musical comedy about World War II. He nodded.
‘You’ve never seen anything, have you?’ she asked. ‘Anything or anyone . . . well, suspicious? Anything out of the ordinary? Anything that scared you?’
And in his pleasure over the watch, his feeling of love for her, his small-boy gladness at her concern (which was at the same time a little frightening in its unhidden unabashed fierceness), he almost told her about the thing that had happened last January.
He opened his mouth and then something — some powerful intuition — closed it again.
What was that something, exactly? Intuition. No more than that . . . and no less. Even children may intuit love’s more complex responsibilities from time to time, and to sense that in some cases it may be kinder to remain quiet. That was part of the reason Ben closed his mouth. But there was something else as well, something not so noble. She could be hard, his mamma. She could be a boss. She never called nun ‘fat,’ she called him ‘big’ (sometimes amplified to ‘big for his age’), and when there were leftovers from supper she would often bring them to him while he was watching TV or doing his homework, and he would eat them, although some dim part of him hated himself for doing so (but never his mamma for putting the food before him — Ben Hanscom would not have dared to hate his mamma; God would surely strike him dead for feeling such a brutish, ungrateful emotion even for a second). And perhaps some even dimmer part of him — the far-off Tibet of Ben’s deeper thoughts —
suspected her motives in this constant feeding. Was it just love? Could it be anything else? Surely not. But