Neverwhere

give it back to me.» It glittered in the sunlight: the most money he had ever spent on anything. He closed the box, and gave it back to her. «You keep it, Jessica,» he said. And then, «I’m sorry.»
She bit her lower lip. «Did you meet someone?» He hesitated. He thought of Lamia, and Hunter, and Anaesthesia, and even Door, but none of them were someones in the way that she meant. «No. No one else,» he said. And then, realizing it was true as he said it, «I’ve just changed, that’s all.»
His intercom buzzed. «Richard? We’re waiting for you.» He pressed the button. «Be right down, Sylvia.»
He looked at Jessica. She said nothing. Perhaps there was nothing she could trust herself to say. She walked away, and she closed the door quietly behind her.
Richard picked up the papers he would need, with one hand. He ran the other hand across his face, as if he were wiping something away: sorrow, perhaps, or tears, or Jessica.
He started taking the Tube again, to and from work, although he soon found that he had stopped buying newspapers to read on his journey in the morning and the evening, and instead of reading he would scan the faces of the other people on the train, faces of every kind and color, and wonder if they were all from London Above, wonder what went on behind their eyes.
During the evening rush hour, a few days after his encounter with Jessica, he thought he saw Lamia across the carriage, with her back to him, her dark hair piled high on her head and her dress long and black. His heart began to pound in his chest. He pushed his way toward her through the crowded compartment. As he got closer, the train pulled into a station, the doors hissed open, and she stepped off. But it was not Lamia. Just another young London goth-girl, he realized, disappointed, off for a night on the town.
One Saturday afternoon he saw a large brown rat, sitting on top of the plastic garbage cans at the back of Newton Mansions, cleaning its whiskers and looking as if it owned the world. At Richard’s approach it leapt down onto the pavement and waited in the shadow of the garbage cans, staring up at him with wary bead-black eyes.
Richard crouched down. «Hello,» he said, gently. «Do we know each other?» The rat made no kind of response that Richard was able to perceive, but it did not run away. «My name is Richard Mayhew,» he continued, in a low voice. «I’m not actually a rat-speaker, but I, um, know a few rats, well, I’ve met some, and I wondered if you were familiar with the Lady Door»
He heard a shoe scrape behind him, and he turned to see the Buchanans looking at him curiously. «Have you . . . lost something?» asked Mrs. Buchanan. Richard heard, but ignored, her husband’s gruff whisper of «Just his marbles.»
«No,» said Richard, honestly, «I was, um, saying hello to a . . . » The rat scurried off and away.
«Was that a rat?» barked George Buchanan. «I’ll complain to the council. It’s a disgrace. But that’s London for you, isn’t it?»
Yes, agreed Richard. It was. It really was.
Richard’s possessions continued to sit untouched in the wooden packing cases in the middle of the living room floor.
He had not yet turned on the television. He would come home at night, and eat, then he would stand at the window, looking out over London, at the cars and the rooftops and the lights, as the late autumn twilight turned into night, and the lights came on all over the city. He would watch, standing alone in his darkened flat, until the city’s lights began to be turned off. Eventually, reluctantly, he would undress, and climb into bed, and go to sleep.
Sylvia came into his office one Friday afternoon. He was opening envelopes, using his knife—Hunter’s knife—as a letter-opener. «Richard?» she said. «I was wondering. Are you getting out much, these days?» He shook his head. «Well, a bunch of us are going out this evening. Do you fancy coming along?»
«Um. Sure,» he said. «Yes. I’d love it.»
He hated it.
There were eight of them: Sylvia and her young man, who had something to do with vintage cars, Gary from Corporate Accounts, who had recently broken up with his girlfriend, due to what Gary persisted in describing as a slight misunderstanding (he had thought she would be rather more understanding about his sleeping with her best friend than she had in fact turned out to be), several perfectly nice people and friends of nice people, and the new girl from Computer Services.
First they saw a film on the huge screen of the Odeon, Leicester Square. The good guy won in the end, and there were plenty of explosions and flying objects on the way. Sylvia decided that Richard should sit next to the girl from Computer Services, as, she explained, she was new to the company and did not know many people.
They walked down to Old Compton Street,